I did it . . .
Thursday, January 14, 2010
. . . However, I hated it. I told you guys why I was so scared to drive on the highway, but I realized that it wasn't the merging that was the problem. The ride to Milwaukee wasn't so bad, but the ride from Milwaukee was horrible. Josh was with me, so that made things a little better (or maybe worse), but I absolutely hated it. On the ride home, I figured out what it was: loud semi trucks, the fear of missing my exit, being ran off the road, my tire going flat and causing me to lose control of the car, being side-swiped. As you can see, it is a whole list of things. The whole way to and from school, I was asking Josh "what if" questions and he was answering them. He's a good supporter. Half way home, I became overwhelmed and just started crying which, by the way, made things worse because I couldn't see anything because of my clouded eyes! I told Josh that I am going to drop out of the classes and just forget about the Social Work thing. I cannot drive to and from Milwaukee 30 times by myself. I was hoping that by me saying this, Josh would offer to drop out of his night classes so that he can escort me, but that plan didn't work out so well. With all due respect to Josh, the main thing that is keeping me from leaving the Social Work thing in the dust (all because of this dreaded ride) is Krissy telling me, "It's things like these that make those little muscles stronger." I love you, Krissy. :-]
I guess she's right; I am a grown woman that needs to learn to be independent in many areas, including this one. I cannot depend on Josh for everything. I will drive to Milwaukee 30 times and home from Milwaukee 30 times. I will do that while being confident and know that I can do this. I don't want to do it, but I will. :-]
Posted byAshley C. at 10:09 PM
