It was my addiction
Friday, December 18, 2009
That's it? I've taken my last final, all homework, papers, binders are put together and I am not excited. Not even a little. People keep asking, "Are you excited it's over??" and of course I say yes because that's what I'm supposed to say, right?
On the way home from school today, it hit me. It's over. I have mixed feelings and here's why:
Josh and I have always said that I am going to work up until we have kids; then I can stay home and raise and teach our little babies. I'm totally all for that. I have thought about going to Grad school and getting my Master's Degree, but why would I spend $50,000+ if I don't plan on working and actually using the Degree? It makes more sense to get my Social Work license (which I am still doing January-May), because it enables me to actually work and make money up until having kids without spending thousands of dollars on a pretty piece of paper. I don't mean to sound so "snoody," but I plan on being a mom for a living, so why would I continue in school?
I think that secretly, deep down inside, school is my addiction. I feel like What's left? I mean, I've been in school since pre-school and I've loved it. I've been stressed at times, but I loved it. I love feeling rushed and down to the last minute crunches, I love procrastination. I think it was like my high. It made me happy in some odd, strange way. I guess the bright side is that I will have more time to work out and sleep.
Shhh, don't tell anyone but I'm already looking at "just-for-fun" classes.
Posted byAshley C. at 2:48 PM
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