A very big struggle
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
I have thought long and hard about actually posting this blog . . . and, well, I've obviously decided to.
Over the past year, I have really gotten to get to know a certain someone very well. I seen this person change from a cold-hearted individual to a person that loves the Lord and seeks His will for every aspect of their life. We were able to share things with each other, laugh, invest time in each other, and help motivate each other to move forward in life regardless of negative circumstances . . .
. . . I didn't know this person at all. From what it seems, they have strayed from the Lord and made choices for their life and are obviously not wise decisions. They have altered the direction of their life and are making not-so-smart decisions that I see no potential positive outcome. We are no longer friends . . . a mutual decision I suppose. I think there is a lesson to be learned in this. For some reason, I have the coldest, most judgmental feelings towards this person and hope they get what's coming for them. But . . . this isn't my problem. I have to keep reminding myself that people are going to make their own decisions and regardless of what people tell them or how much people spend time helping to guide them, they are their own person. I have to remember that if this person really knew the Lord, He has his ways of convicting, forgiving, and loving. I am really going to be praying for these cold feelings to disappear . . . we know that something like that takes Him and we cannot do it in our own power.
Posted byAshley C. at 4:15 PM
Labels: friends, lesson learned, struggles