Showing posts with label prayer. Show all posts
Showing posts with label prayer. Show all posts

Feeling your heartbeat
Monday, November 22, 2010

In memory of Andre, we did a lot of worshipping this weekend . . . that's everything Andre's life was about.  If Andre wasn't worshipping with another church, he was at his home church, walking the halls with his guitar, praising and worshipping his audience of One.  So many people shared that they saw Andre as one of the closest things to Jesus and I have to agree.  One of the songs that we sang on Saturday and Sunday was a song called "The more I seek You;"  this was one of Dre's favorite songs.  This song was one of those that immediately draw an image in your mind and bring you to the Savior in tears and reverance.


The more I seek you,
The more I find you
The more I find you,
The more I love you

I wanna sit at your feet
Drink from the cup in your hand.
Lay back against you and breath, feel your heart beat
This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming

Aside from this being a beautiful song, really picture what these lyrics are saying.  Can you imagine sitting at his feet while he lets you drink from the cup in his hand, and then allows you to lay back against him, feeling his heartbeat and being able to do that all day, every day for all of eternity.  Imagine the talks that you two will have.  Why something happened, how he performed that miracle, why he was willing to die on a cross for your sins alone (and why he would do it again).
I want to share the song with you and was able to find it on Youtube.  Please take a minute to listen and praise God for his unfathomable love. 


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Unforgettable Experiences
Monday, October 26, 2009

Two and a half years ago, I went on a missions trip with 7 others to Indonesia.  It was my first trip outside of the country.  I was honored that God chose me to go and be a part of His work on the other side of the world.  In my opinion, I do not feel that I was as effective as I should have been.  But, who am I to say that God hadn't used me?  I might not know how He has used me until I am in His Kingdom.  I made friends, lasting memories, unforgettable experiences, and so much more. 




To this day, I have dreams about Indonesia and their people at least 5 times a week.  Those are the dreams where I wish I never have to wake up.  Do you ever have those dreams where, when you accidentally wake up, you try oh so hard to fall back asleep and grab the dream back, but can't?  These are those dreams.  I wish I could just soak up the people, the memories, the experiences.  All of it.  The first week I was there, I cried, was homesick, jetlagged, culture shocked.  I feel like I should have breathed in every day I was there, not taking a minute for granted.  Three and a half weeks came and went too fast.  I sometimes wonder, "What if God has chosen the missions field as my line of duty?"  Am I ready to sacrifice that "American dream?"  Am I ready to give up what I hoped and dreamed for, for my future family?  I can honestly say that my heart is not in the right place and that I am not standing in front of God with open hands.  I hope and pray that God will reveal His will and show me what's in store for my future.  I want to be obedient. 


Until then, I suppose I will lay my head down at night thanking God for the experiences that He's blessed me with and pray that many more will come.

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A jumbled mess and confusion
Wednesday, September 9, 2009

I cannot count how many times things have happened and cannot be given an explanation.  What's great about knowing God is that you do not always need to know why . . . He has His hand in it all and will eventually provide answers.  What's even harder is that when these things happen, they often leave you scatterbrained, unorganized, and feeling helpless.  What could God have planned in this?  What could have happened if God's will was followed all of the way?  Knowing God will open your eyes and when you are really seeking Him, you will see a million and a half reasons to stay faithful.  For those that have no concept of who God is or what He can do for us . . . it is our duty, as soldiers for Christ, to pray and be a model to them. 
As soldiers for Christ, it is also our duty to let God have His way wholeheartedly.  Too often, we pray for others and don't see that we are really praying for ourselves; and what's ironic about that is that after we see that we were really praying for ourselves, we are in denial about our need.  When God moves your heart to pray, pray.
 I pray that God would help me to organize my thoughts and feelings about this . . . especially wash away the judgmental tendencies and hateful feelings.  I suppose sometimes it helps to be a stranger to what we don't know . . . it's God's way of helping us to move past things.  

Writing this blog feels completely useless because I have no way to organize the feelings or thoughts that I am experiencing.  I thought that writing this would give me some organization or an outlet, but it has not helped at all (just mixed me up even more!). 

The lesson that I have learned more than anything in this is that I need to be steadfast in prayer and ask God to use me beyond comprehension in my family.  I cannot sit back and expect change, I need to pray and get God's help!

6 weeks too long . . . You're in His hands now . . . much more love and better care.

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